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And It Begins

Ah, Claudia Heart's Food For Children series really inspires me and, I'm falling in love with my new camera.

It's been a long week--a lot of roller coasters. I'm amazed at how high or low I can go in a span of an hour. But, life is beautiful. Happy Weekend!

Slinkachu, Two.

I've blogged about Slinkachu before. I love his work and how he can create a whole other life in a whole other dimension. Escapism at its finest. I believe that it is imagination that makes the world go 'round.

I received my camera and all its magnanimous parts, yesterday.  The manual is massive but I know that the only way to master this beast is to just jump in head first--like I do with everything else. You win some and you loose some but in summation, you always gain.

Holding the camera made me instantly miss those days when I'd set out on some random journey with my camera in hand, ready to capture the world that day--at least according to me. I'm happy that these days can return.

Check out more of his work here and here.

Lights, Camera, ACTION

Not too long ago, I won a few coins via one of those scratch tickets. After taxes and helping a friend in need, I had a bit left over and decided to get myself a brand new camera. My old camera died about a year ago. It was one of those really cheap ones. I think I paid 70 bucks for it. It lasted almost five years but finally gave way during a photo shoot out in the bitter cold. I still can't bring myself to throw it away. We've shared so many memories.

Ever since she departed, I've wanted to upgrade to a nice SLR one. Of course, like most things are when you live hand to mouth on a graduate stipend, I could not afford one. However, with the remaining funds from that dear scratch ticket, I finally took the plunge. I just ordered it actually and can't wait to get going with the photography again.

Also, I'm just about finished with the new blog. I PROMISE to post more about that soon.

Moving Towards Love

An appropriate ending to an amazing day. I ate this puppy in two bites. Not only did I manage to not do ANY school work, I got to hang out with a dear friend from school. I woke up this morning unsure of how to proceed and all I kept getting from the man upstairs was the message to move towards love. That, of course means away from er'thang else. I did that today and it was overwhelmingly peaceful. Lunch, dessert, shopping and just being me.

I Am An Egg Salad Sandwich, Here Me Roar

This painting just delivers. Thank you Gina Minichino 'cause you got a sister realizing that she's not so far removed from that egg salad sandwich squished inside of a plastic container just waiting for some lovely person who's in a hurry to drop $4.75 on me and deliver me from a refrigerated vending machine. I'd imagine that they'd have their way with me in the confines of their cubicle, too embarrassed to admit that they've been forced to go there. I can count, on two hands, actually, the number of times I've waltzed down to the nearest 7-11 and had my way with one of these bad boys. I'm usually PMS-ing and it's usually really late at night, and I have to brace myself for the look of disgust the check-out guy has as he bags the sandwich along with the rest of my "meal": a diet coke, a large ass bag of cheetos, and two king sized snicker's bars. Yep. Weakness.

The moral of the story is rather anti-climatic, ladies and gentleman. Some days I am that fucking sandwich; other days, I want that fucking sandwich. What lies in between is a mixture of irony and confusion and peace.

Derrick Guild

I'm inspired. Despite a most hectic week, what remains after all has been said and done is a renewed sense of self, of right and wrong, of family, of purpose, of moving on. This painting by Derrick Guild pretty much sums up how I feel right now--especially when I ask myself that question...you know, where do I fit in in this big old world?

I've always managed to eclipse parts of myself so that I would not shake the boat. These days, I find myself wanting to have more of a presence. I don't have to be front and center but I want those within an unspecified radius of influence, to see the heart and soul of me. To see that I'm both humble and proud, quiet yet assertive, irrational yet sane. Like this pastry, which commands attention by being ALL of what it is.